Saturday Night Musings–Fighting for My Creativity

Saturday Night Musings–Fighting for My Creativity


I’ve allowed life to pass me by and I’ve been stuck in one hell of a rut. I’ve lost my way–any sense of direction. I want to be creative again, even if it’s simple, small stuff.

Even if I’m just scribbling doodles on a piece of scrap paper, I just want to be true to my artistic nature.

I’m annoyed with myself from wasting so much time focusing on the wrong things in life. I can’t get that time back and all I can think about is how many great ideas I lost by not giving them the time of day. Being an adult is about rediscovering what is important to you, and I’ve made the wrong things important to me for a long time.

I don’t want anything tangible anymore, I just want to make stuff again…

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Struggling to Change

Struggling to Change

Man, these weeks really have been a lot about burning the midnight oil. There are so many aspects about my life that I want to change, and I don’t know where to start.

I’m struggling every day to keep my head above water. The problem is that I work so slow, I make my important decisions at such a sluggish pace, and I don’t know how to “figure things out faster.” I have a slew of changes to make but I don’t know which changes to work on during each day. Because every day, I have enough going on without the change aspect part. But if I don’t make something new happen, then everything really does stay the same.

What I’ve found is that time helps me think, work out my solutions. All I really do at this point is to stay up as late as possible, working on as many projects as I can. I hate to overdo it, but this is the only solution that I know. I just wish I could whirl away the brain fog and just have an sense of clarity. It would be amazing to know what I had to do to get myself on a better path.