All posts tagged: musings

Saturday Night Musings–Fighting for My Creativity

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I’ve allowed life to pass me by and I’ve been stuck in one hell of a rut. I’ve lost my way–any sense of direction. I want to be creative again, even if it’s simple, small stuff. Even if I’m just scribbling doodles on a piece of scrap paper, I just want to be true to my artistic nature. I’m annoyed with myself from wasting so much time focusing on the wrong things in life. I […]

A Few Things I’m Looking Forward To…

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  -Cooking with my cast-iron cauldron (I’ve had it for a year, haven’t tried it once) -Playing around with my apple butter recipe (Though it always turns out too sweet) -Breaking out the giant tubs of Halloween decor (I prefer being vomited in Halloween) -Sharing a few Halloween poems that I’m writing (Anything to evoke the season)  -Being honest with my debt issues, no longer being in denial about my problems (Denial can be really […]

Sticking By Tough Decisions

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It’s been a challenging week in regards to staying true to some major decisions I made a few months back. It can be tough to make big changes for a variety of reasons; a lot of times life will not welcome these bold moves for one reason or another. When you try to take a step forward, there will be obstacles to try to push you back a few paces. I made a choice a […]

Taking Back my Projects

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For the past few months, I have been in survival mode. It’s only been about making it through the day, just completing the most essential of tasks. I am starting to realize that I wasn’t very good at handling my disappointment with a few people in my life, and I bottled everything up and hibernated. I gave them all of my power, and I allowed them to take complete control of my life. I know […]

Saturday Night Musings

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There’s something about the night in summer that is more calming to me than the nights of winter. Throughout this past season, I felt like the nights were far too long and dark. The endless night stretched towards infinity, threatening at any instance to swallow me up. But I feel at peace now, so grateful for the changing season of both nature and life. I’m so thankful that things don’t have to remain the same, […]

Focusing on Belief instead of Worry

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Ahhhhh Pinterest. I can’t tell you how many times Pinterest has pulled me from a dark mood. I always benefit from the intuitive nature of the app. Meaning, I take value from the pins they suggest, based on what I’ve liked in the past. So when I boot up the app, a slew of inspiration quotes and affirmations typically splash across my screen. With my uncontrollable nerves, I’ve been focusing more on quotes instead of […]

Wanna Hide Tonight

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Of course, it’s Sunday evening. Whenever I look, it always the end of a day. I only want to stay in my room and hide for the rest of the week. I’m anxious because I have so many changes that I am working on implementing in my life. I get highly annoyed with myself because it’s like I want things to stay the same crappy way that they have always been. I know this isn’t […]

Blog Refocus: Creating My Future

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I’ve been wanting to give my blog direction for a few months, but have struggled to come up with a clear direction. My problem is always that I am over-inspired, and find many things profoundly interesting. I love living in the information age, it is a lot to take in from the internet but my curious mind is always satisfied (or terrified from what’s out there). Despite finding many great pieces of knowledge out there, […]

A Stressful Holiday Season 2018

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Whew! I have finally completed nearly all of my holiday shopping–I just want it to be over. This isn’t like me as I do enjoy giving gifts and surprising someone with a present. However, this year, I just haven’t felt it. I have completed the motions, fulfilled my obligations, but I am still waiting for that Christmasy feeling to take over. The holidays have felt extremely contrived–entirely inauthentic. I have despised everything to do with it: […]