I’ve allowed life to pass me by and I’ve been stuck in one hell of a rut. I’ve lost my way–any sense of direction. I want to be creative again, even if it’s simple, small stuff.
Even if I’m just scribbling doodles on a piece of scrap paper, I just want to be true to my artistic nature.
I’m annoyed with myself from wasting so much time focusing on the wrong things in life. I can’t get that time back and all I can think about is how many great ideas I lost by not giving them the time of day. Being an adult is about rediscovering what is important to you, and I’ve made the wrong things important to me for a long time.
I don’t want anything tangible anymore, I just want to make stuff again…
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WHEW, what a week.
It’s been an emotional one for sure, and it has required all of my patience, inner strength, and courage to make it through. I’ve had to deal with a few moody people. Don’t get me wrong, people don’t always have to be happy and perfect. I get it myself–we are all human.
I just have a hard time when I didn’t do anything to upset or trouble them, but I am at the brunt of their emotions. I always treat people with respect and if you get to know me, you’ll see that I am a friendly person who goes out of her way to treat everyone with respect. I’m not trying to toot my own horn or say that I’m the best person ever, I just mean that I never go out of my way to be rude to anyone. And it hurts to deal with people being angry with you because you happen to catch them at the wrong place at the wrong time. It makes things really awkward–my challenge has been to not internalize it.
I’m just holding onto this weekend, just trying to take a moment for myself here and there, but there has been a lot going on, and there isn’t much time for me to lounge around. It might be for the best though, so that I don’t spend too much time pondering it.
I just would like to get better at not allowing others to affect my moods so much.
Yeah, I’m having a hard case of the “Mondays” tonight. Today wasn’t too bad of day, though I’m a bit envious of my coworkers who have a bit of vacation left. Everyone always seems to harbor way more vacation time then I do–all I can do is let it go and drink about it.
I never overdo it with alcohol, so me “drinking about it” is a couple of sips before passing out in last year’s Christmas pajamas.
I am currently enjoying Jim Bean’s Apple Bourbon Whiskey. This whiskey finishes with a nice burn and a slight aftertaste of apple which you can notice. I love the fruity notes at the end and can’t recommend it enough to whiskey/apple fans.
I love those late nights when the evening can just extend forever (or give the illusion of at least). I ran several errands this evening but still got to indulge in a bit of retail therapy and grocery shopping. I made the mistake of going to Goodwill and actually bought several bags of goods that I probably shouldn’t have.
Goodwill is my kryptonite because I have such a curious mind and find everything interest. Stop it mind, just stop it. I can just buy bags and bags of what others would call “junk” because I find it intriguing.
I have a confession to make: I bought a Rolodex. Yeah, a Rolodex *bows head in shame* even the cashier commented on how archaic it is but I really wanted it and it was only a buck! That’s just a glimpse of my mindset and I’m sure you can easily see why I get in trouble at a place that has random, inexpensive goods. And I brought home all of my “treasures” and hid them from sight so the bf doesn’t notice them.
The whiskey is making me real honest tonight. Though my confessions are pretty nerdy and lame like me hahaha.