All posts tagged: feelings

Hitting a Creative Block

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From a creative standpoint, I have hit a block. Whether it be writing, drawing, or music, I have been stalled in the creation process. I think for the past couple of months, I have tried too hard. I pushed myself to write, paint, craft–create anything that I could come up with. I feel like a runaway train that has finally crashed, unable to will herself to move forward. I think a lot of it has […]

Made it to Sunday

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WHEW, what a week. It’s been an emotional one for sure, and it has required all of my patience, inner strength, and courage to make it through. I’ve had to deal with a few moody people. Don’t get me wrong, people don’t always have to be happy and perfect. I get it myself–we are all human. I just have a hard time when I didn’t do anything to upset or trouble them, but I am […]

A Lesson in Nerves

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Today was more than a regular Tuesday for me. I have some goals of mine coming down the pipeline, but it isn’t things that I can just ask for. I can think of a few current wishes that would require me to be selected, not things that I can pick myself. I plan to go into more detail later on. I don’t wish to be so vague, I have to wait to see what happens. […]

Struggling to Change

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Man, these weeks really have been a lot about burning the midnight oil. There are so many aspects about my life that I want to change, and I don’t know where to start. I’m struggling every day to keep my head above water. The problem is that I work so slow, I make my important decisions at such a sluggish pace, and I don’t know how to “figure things out faster.” I have a slew […]

Skipping the Company Work Party

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I just want this weekend to never end. In a weird way, it has stretched past more than normal. It almost seems like it’s been a few more days than two. Yesterday, I was supposed to attend my company work party, but I ended up not feeling up for it. I don’t mean to be negative but I am really over the encroachment of my personal/professional lives. I do not want to attend anymore work […]

A Stressful Holiday Season 2018

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Whew! I have finally completed nearly all of my holiday shopping–I just want it to be over. This isn’t like me as I do enjoy giving gifts and surprising someone with a present. However, this year, I just haven’t felt it. I have completed the motions, fulfilled my obligations, but I am still waiting for that Christmasy feeling to take over. The holidays have felt extremely contrived–entirely inauthentic. I have despised everything to do with it: […]

Hermit Saturday

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Hiding from the world today, writing my heart out. These days are rare and I am thankful that I get even this one. Sometimes, writing is the only way I stop myself from saying or doing something that I truly regret. My anger can really bottle up, bubbles of rage that threaten to boil over. It’s not that I wish that people would do what I say or that things have to go my way. […]

Sunday Motivation: Move Along

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I’ve always held this song from All American Rejects close to my heart. This has been a rough week for me–but I know it has been a tough one for us all. With all of the unexpected suicides catching our breaths and reminding us that we all face struggles. For me, it also makes me realize that what we are searching for may not be what we need. We always think that we need wealth […]

My Vision of Success?

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My last few posts have fallen on the negative side and I truly wish there was no need to travel such a low path. The reason that I’ve allowed myself to remain honest with how I feel is because I value emotional truth. I just don’t think that lying to oneself does any favors but suppress an uncomfortable sensation. For me, attempting to stamp out any unpleasant emotions does nothing but ensure a future explosion. […]