All posts tagged: emotion

Halloween Tarot for the Week–7 of Ghosts

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For the upcoming week, I drew the 7 of Ghosts. This card parallels the non-Halloween version of this card, the 7 of cups. Picking this card couldn’t have been more timely, as I recently had an epiphany about how out of touch I’ve been with reality. I’ve become more conscious to how negative my thoughts are and how dark my reality can be in comparison to actual life. This is a card that represents avoiding […]

Struggling with Negative Thoughts

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For the past few months, I’ve noticed my anxiety steadily increasing. It’s gone from random thoughts here and there to a continuous sense of dread and panic. My heart feels heavy in my chest and my shoulders are rigid, stiff. I’ve been making every effort to combat the emotions, to focus on anything other than the fear. I know now that I’m going to really have to fight to overcome the emotions because they won’t […]

Sticking By Tough Decisions

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It’s been a challenging week in regards to staying true to some major decisions I made a few months back. It can be tough to make big changes for a variety of reasons; a lot of times life will not welcome these bold moves for one reason or another. When you try to take a step forward, there will be obstacles to try to push you back a few paces. I made a choice a […]

Taking Back my Projects

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For the past few months, I have been in survival mode. It’s only been about making it through the day, just completing the most essential of tasks. I am starting to realize that I wasn’t very good at handling my disappointment with a few people in my life, and I bottled everything up and hibernated. I gave them all of my power, and I allowed them to take complete control of my life. I know […]

Healing from Dysfunction

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It’s been a few weeks since I’ve worked my crappy job, every day I have literally woken up in relief. I feel at peace to not have to be subjected to such a toxic establishment and am eternally grateful for the normalcy of my new job. People don’t know how bad it was, and I don’t want to bring it up and or rehash the past or anything. I just feel so grateful to be […]

Hitting a Creative Block

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From a creative standpoint, I have hit a block. Whether it be writing, drawing, or music, I have been stalled in the creation process. I think for the past couple of months, I have tried too hard. I pushed myself to write, paint, craft–create anything that I could come up with. I feel like a runaway train that has finally crashed, unable to will herself to move forward. I think a lot of it has […]

My Self-Published Baby: February Rain

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Omg Omg Omg Omg Not the most articulate stream of thoughts but exactly how I’m feeling today, now that I am holding my self-published book,¬†February Rain. It is so surreal to stare at this book, something come to life from the depths of my mind. I am in absolute awe of it, and find it strange to look at something and feel this instant burst of happiness. It’s weird for me since so many things […]

Focusing on Belief instead of Worry

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Ahhhhh Pinterest. I can’t tell you how many times Pinterest has pulled me from a dark mood. I always benefit from the intuitive nature of the app. Meaning, I take value from the pins they suggest, based on what I’ve liked in the past. So when I boot up the app, a slew of inspiration quotes and affirmations typically splash across my screen. With my uncontrollable nerves, I’ve been focusing more on quotes instead of […]

Wanna Hide Tonight

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Of course, it’s Sunday evening. Whenever I look, it always the end of a day. I only want to stay in my room and hide for the rest of the week. I’m anxious because I have so many changes that I am working on implementing in my life. I get highly annoyed with myself because it’s like I want things to stay the same crappy way that they have always been. I know this isn’t […]