All posts tagged: emotion

Sticking By Tough Decisions

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It’s been a challenging week in regards to staying true to some major decisions I made a few months back. It can be tough to make big changes for a variety of reasons; a lot of times life will not welcome these bold moves for one reason or another. When you try to take a step forward, there will be obstacles to try to push you back a few paces. I made a choice a […]

Taking Back my Projects

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For the past few months, I have been in survival mode. It’s only been about making it through the day, just completing the most essential of tasks. I am starting to realize that I wasn’t very good at handling my disappointment with a few people in my life, and I bottled everything up and hibernated. I gave them all of my power, and I allowed them to take complete control of my life. I know […]

Healing from Dysfunction

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It’s been a few weeks since I’ve worked my crappy job, every day I have literally woken up in relief. I feel at peace to not have to be subjected to such a toxic establishment and am eternally grateful for the normalcy of my new job. People don’t know how bad it was, and I don’t want to bring it up and or rehash the past or anything. I just feel so grateful to be […]

Hitting a Creative Block

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From a creative standpoint, I have hit a block. Whether it be writing, drawing, or music, I have been stalled in the creation process. I think for the past couple of months, I have tried too hard. I pushed myself to write, paint, craft–create anything that I could come up with. I feel like a runaway train that has finally crashed, unable to will herself to move forward. I think a lot of it has […]

My Self-Published Baby: February Rain

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Omg Omg Omg Omg Not the most articulate stream of thoughts but exactly how I’m feeling today, now that I am holding my self-published book,¬†February Rain. It is so surreal to stare at this book, something come to life from the depths of my mind. I am in absolute awe of it, and find it strange to look at something and feel this instant burst of happiness. It’s weird for me since so many things […]

Focusing on Belief instead of Worry

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Ahhhhh Pinterest. I can’t tell you how many times Pinterest has pulled me from a dark mood. I always benefit from the intuitive nature of the app. Meaning, I take value from the pins they suggest, based on what I’ve liked in the past. So when I boot up the app, a slew of inspiration quotes and affirmations typically splash across my screen. With my uncontrollable nerves, I’ve been focusing more on quotes instead of […]

Wanna Hide Tonight

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Of course, it’s Sunday evening. Whenever I look, it always the end of a day. I only want to stay in my room and hide for the rest of the week. I’m anxious because I have so many changes that I am working on implementing in my life. I get highly annoyed with myself because it’s like I want things to stay the same crappy way that they have always been. I know this isn’t […]

Giving Up on a Creative Project

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These past couple of weeks have been insanely busy. From a creative perspective, I have really struggled to keep chipping away at my projects. I hate to be such a slow worker, but haste always makes waste whenever I rush my projects. This entire week, I’ve been tackling boring adulting tasks sometimes up to midnight-only to crash and be up at the crack of dawn. Rinse and repeat. I decided to let go of my […]

Fighting My Fear of Creativity

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I’ve chosen to take the plunge and self-publish a collection of poems that I’ve been working on. However, I’ve been terrified since I decided to do this. Panic sits in the center of my chest whenever I ponder the thought, and my breaking becomes shallow. I’m fighting with myself hard, because I just want to hide. I never feel like my creativity is worth it, I never believe that anyone would want to read anything […]