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Wanna Hide Tonight

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Of course, it’s Sunday evening. Whenever I look, it always the end of a day. I only want to stay in my room and hide for the rest of the week. I’m anxious because I have so many changes that I am working on implementing in my life. I get highly annoyed with myself because it’s like I want things to stay the same crappy way that they have always been. I know this isn’t […]

Giving Up on a Creative Project

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These past couple of weeks have been insanely busy. From a creative perspective, I have really struggled to keep chipping away at my projects. I hate to be such a slow worker, but haste always makes waste whenever I rush my projects. This entire week, I’ve been tackling boring adulting tasks sometimes up to midnight-only to crash and be up at the crack of dawn. Rinse and repeat. I decided to let go of my […]

A Saturday Night Ritual-Midnight Pictures

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I’m usually passed out around this time of night but I wanted to fight the urge to turn in. I deserve a break from adulting for a least one silly night a week. I worked on snapping some pictures for my poetry book that I plan on self-publishing. At first I thought of completing some illustrations, but all of my efforts look like a childish, amateurish mess. I would love to collaborate with a real […]

Struggling to Change

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Man, these weeks really have been a lot about burning the midnight oil. There are so many aspects about my life that I want to change, and I don’t know where to start. I’m struggling every day to keep my head above water. The problem is that I work so slow, I make my important decisions at such a sluggish pace, and I don’t know how to “figure things out faster.” I have a slew […]

Fighting My Fear of Creativity

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I’ve chosen to take the plunge and self-publish a collection of poems that I’ve been working on. However, I’ve been terrified since I decided to do this. Panic sits in the center of my chest whenever I ponder the thought, and my breaking becomes shallow. I’m fighting with myself hard, because I just want to hide. I never feel like my creativity is worth it, I never believe that anyone would want to read anything […]

2.19 General Tarot Reading

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I’ve been a bundle of emotions these past couple of weeks. The stress at the day job has steadily increased from “too much” to “unbearable.” I’ve been looking for something better but there has hardly been jobs I can apply for. These events have left me feeling so stuck. When I’m stuck, I go to the cards for advice. This is a general 3-card spread that I do: simply shuffling the cards and drawing three […]

Blog Refocus: Creating My Future

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I’ve been wanting to give my blog direction for a few months, but have struggled to come up with a clear direction. My problem is always that I am over-inspired, and find many things profoundly interesting. I love living in the information age, it is a lot to take in from the internet but my curious mind is always satisfied (or terrified from what’s out there). Despite finding many great pieces of knowledge out there, […]