Halloween Tarot for the Week–7 of Ghosts

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For the upcoming week, I drew the 7 of Ghosts. This card parallels the non-Halloween version of this card, the 7 of cups. Picking this card couldn’t have been more timely, as I recently had an epiphany about how out of touch I’ve been with reality. I’ve become more conscious to how negative my thoughts are and how dark my reality can be in comparison to actual life.

This is a card that represents avoiding delusions of grandeur and not be grounded in real life. The 7 of Ghosts also means having a wild imagination and living in a dream world.

Illusions aren’t always fanciful and amazing–I find that they can often be rather terrifying. Fake thoughts can hold such power over of our lives and cause us to procrastinate and stall. It’s important to be able to decipher what is an overactive or healthy imagination.

To be honest, I’m no longer able to tell what is an adequate amount of dreaming and what is self-deception.

My goal for this week is to focus on being grounded in the present moment, and to not procrastinate on any task that I have this week. I think the secret to not having idle dreams is to always be working on bringing them to life. I don’t want to overdo it, but at the same time, I’d rather be overdoing it in reality instead of overdoing with toxic thoughts…

 

Saturday Night Musings–Fighting for My Creativity

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I’ve allowed life to pass me by and I’ve been stuck in one hell of a rut. I’ve lost my way–any sense of direction. I want to be creative again, even if it’s simple, small stuff.

Even if I’m just scribbling doodles on a piece of scrap paper, I just want to be true to my artistic nature.

I’m annoyed with myself from wasting so much time focusing on the wrong things in life. I can’t get that time back and all I can think about is how many great ideas I lost by not giving them the time of day. Being an adult is about rediscovering what is important to you, and I’ve made the wrong things important to me for a long time.

I don’t want anything tangible anymore, I just want to make stuff again…

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The Corpse in the Cask–From the Encyclopedia of Urban Legends

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I find The Encyclopedia of Urban Legends by Jan Harold Brunvand to be captivating and comprehensive. Countless urban legends are meticulously alphabetized by title. I enjoy the atmosphere that many of these tales evoke and wanted to share one with you:

The Corpse in the Cask

In this legend, an English family discovers a barrelful of rum stored in the basement of an old house they recently purchased. Over the course of a year or two they consume the rum in drinks and cooking; then they cut the barrel in half to use it as a planter. Inside they find the body of a man who had been shipped home from the colonies long ago, preserved in spirits.

     Corpses of fallen military officers and other officials were, in fact, sometimes returned to England inside barrels of wine or other spirits. Even Lord Nelson’s body was preserved in a barrel of brandy after he fell at the Battle of Trafalgar in 1805 and in that container was sent back to England for burial. One tradition claims that sailors drilled into the barrel and sipped out some of the brandy with straws, giving rise to the expression “tapping the admiral.” 

     “The Corpse in the Cask” is similar to American legends about bodies found in city water tanks, and it is also reminiscent of various legends about accidental cannibalism. 

 

 

Halloween Party 2019–Viking

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For this year’s soiree, the plan is to continue with the same theme as last year–viking. Viking is a tough theme for me to conceptualize and I tend to decorate in a theme of an old fantasy tavern. Lots of autumn tones and unusual knickknacks. My hope for this year is that I’ll be able to find the time to learn runes so that I’ll be able to do a reading for the guests.

I had bought a set last year, but just never found the time to learn them. It feels like that is common struggle with me–things that I want to learn, but it just seems like I never have the time to learn it. A lack of proper time management is the culprit for sure. Here are a few decorations that I’ve collected/crafted:

Pumpkin a barrel, hoping it comes off fantasy taverny.

Kids these days don’t seem to play with swords, I ended up lucking out finding this sword in the outdoor play aisle of all places. It’s actually bubbles contained within a sword. The hilt twists off the sword to reveal an epic bubble wand.

Autumn corn in a basket. LOL, nothing fancy about this one.

I can’t wait to start decorating ^___^

Halloween Tarot Reading: Five of Bats (Reversed)

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I figured now would be the perfect time to whip out my Halloween Tarot deck by Kipling West. This deck is full of inspiration for Halloween–a whirl of colorful and strange characters that suck you into their spooky world. It’s a place full of magic and intrigue.

In terms of a question, I just asked the cards for a general overview card. I didn’t harbor a specific inquiry or have anything in particular that I wanted an answer for. When I have no clear direction–I tend to draw one card.

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5 of Bats (Reversed) is the first card for this season. Traditionally–the 5 of Bats (or Swords) means an ending of conflict or a resolution of some kind. Something that you struggling with will be resolved; forgiveness will be granted.

However, the interpretation of the 5 of Bats has its own meaning. Reversed, the 5 of Bats means Empty Victory. Foolish Pride. Weakness. Refusing to accept bullying. 

When I receive readings that are less than stellar–I actually don’t view them in a bad light. I am thankful for the chance to slow down and avoid problems. With a card like this, I interpret it as a caution to take a step back and not allow pride or weakness to lead to an empty victory.

There are so many things I want to accomplish, to “win” at and I’ve absolutely caught myself creating waste from haste. I am grateful for the reminder to just slow down and not allow pride or weakness to get in the way and lead to self-sabotage. It’s so easy for my emotions to take control when there’s something out there that I really want.

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My Favorite Halloween Poems

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Tee hee hee, it’s only my favorite season of the year! Meh to winter, spring, and summer–autumn is my time.

I delight in the cooling temperatures, pursuing the aisles for everything black and orange. In the wintertime, I like to listen to carols but for Halloween, I love to fall into the rhymes of a spooky verse.

All Souls’ Night, 1917
Hortense King Flexner

You heap the logs and try to fill
The little room with words and cheer,
But silent feet are on the hill,
Across the window veiled eyes peer.
The hosts of lovers, young in death,
Go seeking down the world to-night,
Remembering faces, warmth and breath—
And they shall seek till it is light.
Then let the white-flaked logs burn low,
Lest those who drift before the storm
See gladness on our hearth and know
There is no flame can make them warm.

I love how these verses evoke the somberness of season with a concise eloquence. It doesn’t take several stanzas to build such a mood–it’s present from the first line.

Theme in Yellow
Carl Sandburg

I spot the hills
With yellow balls in autumn.
I light the prairie cornfields
Orange and tawny gold clusters
And I am called pumpkins.
On the last of October
When dusk is fallen
Children join hands
And circle round me
Singing ghost songs
And love to the harvest moon;
I am a jack-o’-lantern
With terrible teeth
And the children know
I am fooling.

Who isn’t transported their grandpa’s farm in the heart of October? This poem is rich with imagery.

Dusk in Autumn
Sara Teasdale

The moon is like a scimitar,
A little silver scimitar,
A-drifting down the sky.
And near beside it is a star,
A timid twinkling golden star,
That watches likes an eye.

And thro’ the nursery window-pane
The witches have a fire again,
Just like the ones we make,—
And now I know they’re having tea,
I wish they’d give a cup to me,
With witches’ currant cake.

I love the story within, this reminds me of a Halloween poem that you would find on a vintage postcard.

I do hope that these poems get you into the spirit ❤ I tend to have a theme with my favorites. I prefer poems that short and snappy, that don’t require intense buildup. It’s easy for me to be distracted, but all three of these poems suck me into their eerie worlds.

Sweet Halloween Tidings

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A Few Things I’m Looking Forward To…

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-Cooking with my cast-iron cauldron (I’ve had it for a year, haven’t tried it once)

-Playing around with my apple butter recipe (Though it always turns out too sweet)

-Breaking out the giant tubs of Halloween decor (I prefer being vomited in Halloween)

-Sharing a few Halloween poems that I’m writing (Anything to evoke the season) 

-Being honest with my debt issues, no longer being in denial about my problems (Denial can be really tricky for me to navigate most times). 

-Starting to write my stories again (even if it’s crap, just write)

-Spending time with old friends (I hate realizing that some people I might see once a year)

-Getting lost in any book (seriously, ANY book)

-Living life by my own definitions (trying incredible hard not to lose my authentic self…a true struggle for me)

 

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Struggling with Negative Thoughts

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For the past few months, I’ve noticed my anxiety steadily increasing. It’s gone from random thoughts here and there to a continuous sense of dread and panic. My heart feels heavy in my chest and my shoulders are rigid, stiff.

I’ve been making every effort to combat the emotions, to focus on anything other than the fear. I know now that I’m going to really have to fight to overcome the emotions because they won’t go away on their own. However, none of my efforts seem to be able to quench them. I do everything I can to get my mind off the nervousness, but it doesn’t seem to work. Because before I realize it–I’m trapped in this bubble of negative thoughts.

I’d do anything to be rid of the fear but one step I’ve had to take is to stop lying to myself. I’m brutally honest with how I feel, and when something is and isn’t working for me anymore. One thing that hasn’t helped (and used to be a big source of comfort) was reading anxiety quotes. Now, I can honesty say that they do nothing for me and give me no relief.

The reason is because I understand that anxiety is within the mind and that it’s up to me to “control how I feel” and “see the big picture.” However, I obviously can’t do those things. Am I stuck with anxiety since I cannot control my emotions? You know what I mean? I understand it already– I get that I am the problem, that I am the cause of it all. But that stark assessment doesn’t provide me with any solution or make me feel comforted.

Sticking By Tough Decisions

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It’s been a challenging week in regards to staying true to some major decisions I made a few months back. It can be tough to make big changes for a variety of reasons; a lot of times life will not welcome these bold moves for one reason or another. When you try to take a step forward, there will be obstacles to try to push you back a few paces.

I made a choice a few months ago to cut some toxic people from my life. People whose existence does nothing but stress and antagonize me. I’m by no means, a fair weathered friend. These were people that I’ve stuck by for years and years but they just are incapable of change. I can tell that the further we continue the relationship, the more it’s them depending on me, me being there for them. I’m at a point in my life where large changes are very necessary. There is no way that I can focus on healing and improving my life and keeping up with those folks.

It can be tough to say no to codependent people, because immediately they cling and fight to stay close. It’s challenging enough to wake up and say that some relationships are too toxic, these people are wrong, and then to have deal with their begging and pleading for you to not give up on them. I never say anything mean to people, and I make every effort to treat others with the utmost respect. So for me, I’m not telling these people to “f off,” I am merely giving myself a respectable distance from them.

As much as it sucks to deal with codependent people, I am grateful for the clarity to see them for who they really are and the wisdom to know that they shouldn’t be around. The reason that cutting out toxic people can be so healing because not only is their negative influence not around, but you are telling yourself that you are worth more than that.

Taking Back my Projects

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For the past few months, I have been in survival mode. It’s only been about making it through the day, just completing the most essential of tasks. I am starting to realize that I wasn’t very good at handling my disappointment with a few people in my life, and I bottled everything up and hibernated. I gave them all of my power, and I allowed them to take complete control of my life.

I know that I need to stop blaming them too, I think the reason I have is because it’s been hard for me to process this emotion of disappointment. I don’t do things for others because I expect anything back–the disappointment comes from hoping they will show up in some form or another for you, but they don’t at all.

You aren’t worth anything for them, when they meant so much to them. It can be a really tough pill to shallow, and I’ve had a hell of a time managing to this, but I’m starting to see the light at the end of tunnel. I am starting to see how much healthier and happier my life can be without them. And with this healing taking place, I’m starting to pick up my writing projects again.

Earlier this year, I self published February Rain which was an accomplishment that brought me a lot of joy. For me, the success comes from finishing the project. I had an idea for another poetry book but I haven’t made any effort on it. I’m starting to scribble ideas down and I can feel the momentum building.

My hope is in a few months, I’ll be able to write every day, and take back my projects.